Can I Play With Madness?

I miss my “best friend”, she doesn’t even talk to me anymore, reply to my messages, or make an effort to hang out with me.

I miss my friends, I have no one except my mum and god, which is good and all but I wouldn’t mind having a friend who actually cared about me, or wanted to see me, or made some kind of effort to see how I am or what I am doing… I am sick of always making the effort, I love them all more than anything but I need a friend and no one is here, which is really making me look at myself and wonder why…

I have my exboyfriend… But he’s too busy trying to convince me we are meant for each other to really care about how I am.

I love food so much, I could never starve or deprive myself…. But dear god, I need to get fit.

Mum just told me that my fringe doesn’t look as good on me as it does on other people….

She is the only other persons opinion other than my own that I care about when it comes to the way I look so my self esteem is pretty low right now, especially considering that I love my fringe and thought it was the best thing about my looks in general :(

A Job.

I have been applying every week for almost six months and nothing.

I have experience, I am a hard worker and fantastic in hospitality.

I have skills……..  why don’t they want me!!!??!?!?! :(